“Reproach hath broken my heart; and I am full of heaviness: and I looked for some to take pity, but there was none; and for comforters, but I found none.” -Psalm 69:20 KJV
Have you ever felt like this? I have. Just this week I found myself hurting over what others had said or done. I knew their intentions were not to hurt me; however, I found myself buried in despair. I cried out to God and was brought to these scriptures:
“Why are you in despair, O my soul? And why are you restless and disturbed within me? Hope in God and wait expectantly for Him, for I shall again praise Him, The help of my countenance and my God.” -Psalm 43:5 AMP
Hope In God
I knew that I should not feel this way.
As a Christian who trusts God, I still found myself hurt by the words or absence of words of others. I had learned that we cannot rely on others. Other people, whether they are your parents, children, spouse, friend, or pastor. People will let you down and disappoint you. After all, they are just people. The Bible says that we all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. (Romans 3:23 NIV) We must give to others the grace we, ourselves, so desperately need.
As well, we have to realize that Jesus is the only one who can fill the void in our life. No one else can. The void calls out to Jesus. Once we accept Jesus in our hearts, it is our daily relationship with Him that determines how filled we are.
This was where I found myself.
I was trusting God, or so I thought, yet I could not get rid of the heaviness. I had to let go so I talked to God. God already knew what I was thinking and feeling; however, when we say it out loud, we release it and let go. God taught me this principle many years ago so I needed to get back to the basics. “Just talk to God.” As I talked to Him, He led me to Psalm 69:13-18 NIV. There I laid down the heaviness of my heart.
I learned that although I was discouraged when others weren’t there for me, God needed me to trust Him. As I talked to God, I found rest. In rest, I found that God was bringing something new in my life. God knew I would be going through a lot of changes – and changes are not my strong suit.
God was trying to prepare me. Had I stayed upset at what others said or did, I would have missed the rest for which God was preparing me.
Rest I would need for the days ahead.
“Yes, my soul, find rest in God;
my hope comes from him.
Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
My salvation and my honor depend on God;
he is my mighty rock, my refuge.
Trust in him at all times, you people;
pour out your hearts to him,
for God is our refuge.” -Psalm 62:5-8 NIV
In God’s presence we find rest. It is refreshing and gives us all we need. If you find yourself discouraged, give it a try. Bring all you have to Jesus. Let God weed through it. Sit at the feet of Jesus and let His presence wash over you like a waterfall. Be still and wait. I promise when you do this, you will be full and will not lack anything.
Security, peace, love, and joy. It is waiting for you.